THIS is the look that got to me………TERMINATOR….. The way light reflects in his eyes….. He really doesn’t LOOK human. I honestly did not know if he had shot Casey or not. To have such an expressive face…..he showed NO emotion. I felt like I was looking at the ‘killer’ that Stanton created.
Of course, it’s important to note that in Joss’s case, John had to witness it happen right in front of him. That’s definitely going to maximize the impact. I’ve seen people compare this and say that Joss obviously meant more to him, but I don’t think you can make that comparison. Two very different situations. Regardless, S03E09 was devastating and heartbreaking. Ah, I just can’t even…no words.
I think he was equally devastated by both. After Jessica, he had no one, he ended up living on the streets, drinking himself to a slow death. He killed Peter, the man responsible for killing Jessica. He would have done the same after Carter died, but Fusco and Finch wouldn’t leave him alone. They searched for him, they pleaded with him not to go down the same path. He had already shut down emotionally, He wanted revenge, wanted to kill Simmons, but he didn’t get the chance. But his pain was equal in my opinion. The only difference is, he had a support system there for him after he lost Carter.